The Peace He Gives

How do I Make Christmas...Christmas? My notebook entry on 12-24-2020 My thoughts lately… Why does Christmas feel Christ-less to me right now? I feel that it’s my fault for not spending enough time with Jesus or not being mindful about it. So then I keep asking myself “how” to keep Jesus the reason for the season. What should I be doing?  Then I realized, the answer, once again, is “nothing”. Just be. Enjoy. Count blessings. Let me expand...      I can take more intentional time to spend with Jesus. At the same time there is a balance.  I am, by nature, a doer. I like to do things and make things happen by action of my own accord or of my own words. I also don’t naturally depend on anyone. In fact, I forgot the reason for Christmas all together without even realizing it. I wanted so badly to “feel” the reason for the season that I forgot that the reason is to receive the gift of Jesus . Does anyone else relate?       Receive is a lack of action. When you receive a gift, you let it stay

  Why did I start a blog? Writing began as an outlet and coping strategy for me ever since middle school. After encouragement from a few teachers and friends, I said,  “Alright, so I’ll start posting my poetry!” In reality, I backed out and didn’t post anything because I was scared. Remember, poetry to me has always been a personal outlet, and to let strangers into my emotional world was terrifying, is terrifying still. I managed to procrastinate this whole blog thing for a few years. Yet, it still nudged me. I felt in my heart that I needed to share my personal poetry and to share my story. I know that I am not the only one who has demons that they battle with on a daily basis. I know there are people out there that still think they are alone. If I can have a chance at helping them, I want to. I know God wants me to. That’s His spirit nudging me all these years. Okay, God, I’m paying attention now. So, after a few God intended validations from friends, a “coincidental” church message